I know no one is going to read this but this is the only place I guess I can put this stuff without friends seeing it. It sucks that this is how life is. No matter what I do I’m never happy. Everyone fucks me over. I always lose people that mean the most too me. I have never been so sad in my like. I feel so depressed so sad so stressed. I hate myself. I hate myself more then ever. I’m such a big waste of space. Such a bother too everyone. Honestly I have no reason to be here. I don’t even know why I am here everyone says god put you here for a reason and if that’s true then why do I not see a reason? Why does everyone treat me so shitty. Why don’t I see a reason for me to be here? Why am I so lifeless, so sad, so depressed. I honestly have the biggest hatred for myself. I don’t know how much longer I can stand being here.